What A Day!!

Let's just simply say that today is not my best day. We started to implement the theory we had learned into practice. Believe me, it wasn't easy at all. Frankly, it was very difficult for me. The lecturer implied that as long as we had our logic running, that wouldn't be a problem. Well, the problem is, MY logic is not so good :p Every time I follow an IQ test or any other similar tests, I always score low in the logic part. That's why I couldn't follow the lesson like my other classmates.

Besides that, many things distracted me today, ranging from my personal problems with some people, financial problem (coz I haven't paid the book fee) and the Internet connection problem. All those separate problems merged into one big cloud that covered my head (and brain). I could barely concentrate to find what's wrong with the script we were told to improve. My partner hadn't arrived yet and my other classmates seemed busy with their own projects.

As a student, you'll definitely categorize me into those "silent and passive" students. I'll never have courage to ask unless I feel comfortable to do so. So, I tried to do what I could do: finding some pictures to use for the project. I've mentioned the connection problem, right? The hot spot was off for a few days and my modem provider didn't have good signal there. But I kept trying because it's the only way I could make myself feel not so useless for myself and my partner.

The class ended at around 4 this afternoon. Some left with happy and satisfied faces, since they had been successful in improving their projects. Some left with flat expression, hoping they would do better tomorrow, and one left with a gloomy face, wondering whether tomorrow will end up just the same (and guess who :p)

This sense of failure that I experienced today lead me to think whether I really belong to this class or not. I had so many doubts, and I guess I'll have to wait until the end of the semester to see whether they are correct or are they only parts of my negative emotions that emerge every time I fail to do something.

Fortunately, I have best friends who always support me and motivate me although we are far apart now. Thanks to them, I find my spirit back now, in the end of this day. One thing they make me believe: God will never put us through temptations that we cannot pass. I know it sounds so abstract and religious, but, hey, my motto is "have a little faith" anyway. So, I decide to trust myself more, that I'm here in this class for a reason, which is certainly not to fail :)

The first thing I do to practice my motto is keep trying to get this article published although the Internet just goes on and off all the time. Well, I suppose this is it. My experience for today (February 17th). Hopefully, tomorrow (or should I say today? since it's already 1 a.m. :p), I will be able to tell you happier stories.

Therefore, I'll give you a little present: a song that describes my day today. Copy the link below and go for it :p

Sara Bareilles - Gonna Get Over You

I'm sure that I'm gonna get over this, I'll be all right, just not tonight. It's a very nice song, I'm sure you'll like it :)

See you again soon! God bless ^^

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